Sunday, 31 March 2013

Another Easter (done and dusted)

Just three years ago, Easter became something very different for me from the, break from work, chocolate guzzling
lazy, self indulgent few days it had always been in times past.

To my astonishment I found myself being baptised and confirmed into a new way of looking at life.

There was nothing inherently wrong with the old way of life, after all, it was the same as many millions of other peoples' lives, but this "sea-change" wrought from the catalyst of my husband's death was, also for me, a kind of death.

Death of a life-long approach to the world and to its problems, views, prejudices and self-serving indifference to the needs of others.

Many times over the previous thirty or forty years I had tentatively approached the idea of Christianity as a way of life, but had always come to the same conclusion, namely that Christians were a particular kind of person.

My background and upbringing had taught me that religion was the single greatest stumbling block to any kind of social justice and equality, and further, that where Christianity of the Roman Catholic persuasion was concerned, was an active ingredient in maintaining the status quo in all the poorest countries of the world.

Some of these views I still adhere to today, but having accepted the basic tenet of Christ's teaching, with love at  its foundation, I have slowly, very very slowly become able. for the first time in my life, to accept every person I meet, as a potential friend.

Such an idea would have been anathema to my former 'self', viewing as I did, every new contact with a sort of guarded chilly formality, born I think, of fear.

Brought up to be well mannered, i had somehow convinced myself that that was all that was required of me on being introduced to new people.

It is very late in life to be discovering that an open, warm and (dare I say, loving) approach to each new contact almost always receives a similarly warm and loving response.

At St. Mary's, we have just completed a hugely satisfying (if gruelling) four days of Easter services.  Each one unique in its flavour, and each serving a different purpose in the Easter 'story', but the whole four days has had a most profound affect on my stony heart, and, at last, the thaw is beginning.

I only need to live about another forty years for the process to be complete.

Happy Easter everybody.

16 comments:

  1. A very happy Easter to you, Ray.

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  2. And from me. A Happy Easter to you, Ray.

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  3. Peace on your journey Ray!

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  4. This is so touching, Ray and rings very true. One of the truths of Christianity is that it's never too late to change and I'm so glad that you discovered this for yourself and this Easter has been so special for you. May the thaw continue and intensify. :-)

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  5. Thankyou Theanne, and blessings on you and The Baron (may he soon be himself again) this Easter.

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  6. Many thanks Perpetua. The thaw is so well underway that I am in imminent danger of drowning.
    I am looking forward to my next half-century.

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  7. Happy Easter to you! May the joy of Easter continue to warm your heart.

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  8. Thankyou Nancy. I feel sure it will.

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  9. Lovely post, Ray. I love hearing stories of transformation!

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  10. Thanks Penny, but in all sincerity, it's more a case of treading a different path than a transformation.
    A work in progress.

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  11. You display the Christian wisdom beyond the 3 years. Happy Easter.

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  12. Oh Jane a lovely thing to say. I only wish it were true.
    A Happy Easter to you too.

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  13. Sorry I haven't logged on for a while. Glad your Easter was good. I was very grateful of your open & warm approach to me, helped me get through tough times, thank you.

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  14. My dear Shona. Only too happy to be of any help whatsoever.
    I hope all is well with you and yours. X

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