Life has been more than a little trying in the past few months and I didn't want to pour out my moans and groans into the daily soup of misery most people have suffered this past Winter.
My Parkinson's has caused a loss of energy and the accompanying low spirits which would have made my writing a 'turnoff' for most people.
In addition I have had my second cateract operation and have not been very happy about the result.
My left eye (operated on last August) is my 'lomg-sighted eye and I have always used it to full advantage when out and about.
The right eye is my short-sighted eye and i have always used it for any sort of close work and much more importantly, for reading.
Imagine my shock after removing the dressing the day after the op on my right eye to find myself unable to read.
Neither library books, TV programmes, music (words and notes) nor any of the day to day purposes for which I have always used this valuable asset are now possible.
When I had my telephone post-op check-up I poured out my unhappiness at this turn of events adding that I had believed that the operation merely removed the cateract and replaced the biological lens with a clear glass one. (That may sound niaive but was what I thought).
This it was explained to me was not the case as they apparently assess what they perceive to be the right level of magnification (or whatever) and use the appropriate lens. Making the patient either able see well at close quarters or at a distance.
They had chosen to make my eye in essence, more like the left eye, and while the clarity of vision at a few feet is excellent I will now need to have glasses in order to read etc.
The consensus seemed to be that the fault was mine rather than theirs for not making plain to them that I had always been able to read without glasses and would prefer to keep that faculty.
Since i had no idea what lay in store I cannot agree with that opinion but have to accept that from now on I will never again be able to simply 'look and see'.
For anyone who has always worn spec's the operation must be hugely valuable, for me it has cost me one of my senses.
It will be a few weeks before I can have spectacles made but meanwhile I am in limbo using a pair of spec's prescribed about 10 years ago for reading tiny print and never previously used. Without them I would be unable to use the computer as well as all the aforementioned things.
Forgive me please for this long miserable diatribe, I'm sure this feeling won't last much longer and I'll try to be more cheerful next time.
Belated Easter Blessings to one and all.
Oh and the photo above is how I looked at 18 long before sight or anything else much, was a problem.
