Wednesday, 28 September 2011
As I have said many times before, I am very lonely (all together Ahhhhhh!). While I am doing my best to find ways of addressing the problem, it by no means is meant to imply that I welcome with open arms all invasions of privacy.
This has been brought home to me quite sharply just this afternoon.
Being still beset with cold bugs and not my usual clear thinking bright and sparkling self (ahem), I left a library book on the bus this morning on my way to brass cleaning morning at St. M's.
I tried ringing the depot, no reply. Left it a few hours and tried again (left message on answering machine).
No response. Was just moving bins etc back into the garage out of the much too hot sun when a neighbour saw me and having been unwise enough to ask how I was, received the full story, poor girl.
She immediately offered to run me round to the depot - about a mile away- did so and brought me back.
Would not come in for a drink (tea or other) and brushed aside my thanks as though it were nothing.
Such kindness and offered in the most non-invasive way. Lovely!
Ten minutes later the phone rang. After the usual guff about only taking a few seconds etc. she, for it was a she, got down to the nitty-gritty of trying to sell me solar heating. She ignored all my protestations about having no intention of taking on that sort of expense at my stage of life and thundered on and on and on.
When she was finally forced to breath I said "no" and put the phone down.
As I did so the doorbell rang. A fresh-faced young man wanted to sign me up to support a childrens' charity for the deaf. Having explained that I already give to the RNID on a regular basis and was not able or interested in taking on even more charities than I am currently involved with, he said, as though there could be no arguing with such a statement, "but this is for children".
I was polite but finally managed to say no and closed the door - quite gently - when what I wanted to do was scream "go away and leave me in peace".
Loneliness is not nice, solitude however, is quite another thing.